Obviously, we are in some particularly strange and scary times.
The global COVID-19 has changed the face of our world as we know it. Literally overnight, I went from having everywhere to go and everything to do to becoming a sitting duck at home, essentially jobless with no clue as to when or how I would go back to “normal,” whatever that means these days. Additionally, many of us also watching in horror as the infection rate and death toll continue to tick upward, while medical personnel treat countless patients and essential workers take on the heinous risk of keeping non-negotiable services open at the risk of their own health, if not their lives. To these ones, I say from the bottom of my heart: Thank you.
I will admit, I had several dark nights of the soul over this. While the fact that I am incredibly blessed to not have to worry about my health or my basic needs being met does not escape me, I do worry about my friends who are not so lucky. I also mourned the (hopefully temporary) loss of my routine and my income, which included a job that I enjoyed coupled with an amazing group of friends that I miss terribly. I lamented every invitation I declined to go out, not knowing that soon there would be nowhere to go. I grieved every time I said “no” instead of “yes,” not knowing that soon I wouldn’t even have a choice…
And then I realized something.
In the midst of these losses, the one thing I did gain was time-uninterrupted, uninhibited, unoccupied time. After several chats with my amazing, long-suffering boyfriend, it dawned on me that I could better use this time to reevaluate my life and perhaps start something new. I had time to think, write, brainstorm, and create like never before. God willing, such time would never be available again (at least not under harrowing circumstances such as these). The same can be said for the number of us who are currently out of work. What you lost in routine you gained in time.
So, how are you going to use it? Will it mean finally getting some rest? Organizing your home? Starting a new business? That is entirely up to you.
The one thing that I would tell you not to use this time for is worrying. Worry robs you of all peace and is such a waste of time. Now that we have so much of it, why give it away to something that serves no productive purpose?
So, as I wake up again on day whatever-it-is of quarantine facing another day of uncertainty, be aware that I am right there with you. This will not last forever and we will find our rhythm again. In the meantime, use this time in a way that can set you up for a future that may not have happened otherwise, one that will hopefully result in a happier, healthier world for everyone.